A little scare and a big scar!
I'll try not to bore you but for my journaling purposes I have decided to include lots of info in my posts.
Mark and I don't have the best skin, we both remember having burnt blistered skin as kids and to top that we are constantly in the sun boating or playing volleyball. Not the best for our skin type... we now wear sun shirts and plenty of sunblock!
I had noticed a spot/mole on my hand a few months back... I don't really like doctor appointments so I just kept putting it off... I honestly kept thinking to myself, "I better go in, I know this isn't good, I am sure it is cancer... why not me?... crap like this happens to everyone else around me." but the thought of getting a confirming "you have cancer" kept me away for months.
Finally, Mark said we both need to go in so I set the appointment. We both had small biopsies, Me on my hand and Mark on his leg... I also had pre-cancer on my lips... nice!!!
About a week later a Friday afternoon, I am checking my answering machine and it was our dermatologist she said, "Um, I don't mean to alarm you two but I really need to speak with both of you, I am out of the office until Monday so please call back then."
I had the whole weekend to have all the thoughts go through my head like... "Ok it is my turn, I hope Mark is ok without me, I hope the kids are ok... What do I need to accomplish before I go!!!" I know it sounds silly, something so routine but I have every reason to think that I am next!!! It terrifies me!
When I called in Monday... I was devastated!!! It wasn't me... It was Mark, nothing could be worse!!! The thought of Mark gone... can't even go there...
Again, I know this all sounds silly but these were my thoughts... She said Mark had a severely atypical nevus... and they couldn't rule out melanoma!!! He needed to come back in asap to have more removed. I also needed to have more removed but It wasn't urgent or serious just precautionary.
So here we are a few weeks later we both have nice scars... all results came back good... no need to worry! We just need to be checked often.
All that worrying!!! All those crazy thoughts!!! Sure puts things in perspective!